Itchy

On and off for about the last 8 months I have been having troubles with my eyes. Most recently it's been more on than off though. Let me explain what troubles means . . . it means that my eyes (one or both) will randomly and very suddenly start to itch. And shortly thereafter start to burn. This burning itching feeling is shortly followed by the feeling of sand being stuck in my eye(s). Not on my eyelid, but in my eye. A burning itching sandy sensation that makes me want to claw my eyes out. Really, I have screamed at my eyes through my pain and tears while clawing at them to make it stop. It doesn't stop, and really, the screaming and clawing don't do a bit of good, but it's all I can think to do. To say it's painful would be the biggest understatement of the century. Some of these times I will be wearing my contacts which I will take out as soon as possible. It's really horrible when I'm not at home and this excruciatingly deplorable itchiness happens. I've started lugging my glasses and contact stuff around with me just because of it. Not too long ago the hubs and I went to see an Easter pageant and lo and behold guess what happened to me right at the start when I was trying to be nice and smile and meet a bunch of the hubs' friends? Yep, you guessed it, My eye attacked me. What a thoughtful eye I have. Thankfully about half way through the pageant and a very tomato-y red eye later it stopped eating my face off. I couldn't get up in the middle of the pageant and even if I could have I had forgotten my eye stuff at home. And because I am Blind without my glasses or contacts I couldn't just take them out and wait to get home. Nope. The thing is, you would think that taking the contacts out would lessen the horrible fire feeling in my eye, but no. It doesn't. It only makes it ten hundred times worse. Really. I am not exaggerating. There are times when I find myself sitting on the floor holding my eye (well, face, but you know . . .) with both hands and rocking back and forth it is that painful. It's true.

Then there are times when I'm not wearing my contacts and the same itch sneaks up on me. There is nothing I can do on those days. I've tried putting in eye drops, but that never helps. Believe me I've tried. All they it does is make it five hundred times worse. It is not a fun feeling, let me tell you. I was always told to never rub or scratch my eyes (apparently it's not very good to do since the skin around your eye is so thin, soft, and delicate). Well, I try to not scratch or rub my eyes. Have you ever tried not rubbing your eyes when you have a 2x4 stuck in there? I think not. I keep telling my eyes I'm sorry for ruining them, but I really really can't help it.

What's wrong with me? Why are my eyes doing this? Why is there always sand, planks, fire, itchiness in my eyes? Are my eyes broken? Have you ever had problems with your eyes? If you have a solution or idea that would make this misery stop, please pass it along.

And since I'm on the topic of misery and pain . . . I've been having Horrible headaches. They've been happening more and more frequently too. I'm starting to wonder if the two aren't somehow related. Maybe I have a brain tumor. Is that possible? I mean, I know it's possible to have a brain tumor . . . but humm . . . I never thought of that before. The two could be linked. I could have a tumor! Excuse me. I need to Google this.